7.16.2006

Aha!!

Today i had something of an AHA moment today.

Figured out that i was manifesting all the things i fear most.

From the past i know that intense self consciousness ( ego - consciousness to be exact) is one of the most miserable and paralyzing states a human being can be in.

And i figured out that currently i am living primarily in my ego anyway, despite trying not to do so.

Egoism is my memories / prejudices / opinions / desires / frustrations / achievements etc etc.

At best i had managed to suppress the ego phenomenon, and as such this carries no moral value it seems.

With the suppression, i am managing to do nothin and making myself pretty miserable anyways.

Won't suppress, will be open and fully understand what is happening.

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